Its been so long!

Hey people out their that read my blog im sorry I havent blogged in a while. Laptop wont let me get on blogger and I just now downloaded the Blogger App on my phone.
So how have you all been doing? Hopefully you have been doing good and if not I am still here willing to listen and help in anyway that I possibly can help. And if your wondering about me I have been better though I am still looking on the brighter side of things as much as I possibly can. Which is the better thing to do in my personal opinion though everyone is entitled to their opinions lol.
Well im going to get off of here and hopefully start posting nearly everyday now since I have the Blogger App.

A writing!

So for the past two weeks I have been trying to post from Blogger and everytime that I do it won't seem to load. So I finally gave up on Google Crome and went back to regular old Internet. And it seemed to work so now I am finally able to post onto Blogger. Yay!!

So we are close to the end of the first month of 2012. Things are just beginning to take off from their starting point. Rather they be good or bad things. Though things will usually get worse before they get better. Which is kind of the suckish part about life, but it you keep looking foward and look past all of the negative and bad things you can see that there are still good things to come.

So last week since I couldn't post onto Blogger I typed a sort of thought thing I guess you would call it. It isn't fully finished yet and still needs some touch up's but it is better than nothing at all. And I think that everything is said in it is the truth and that we really do need to take it into consideration at times. So if you want to read it I am going to copy it onto this post.

Looking Within and Out

            Everyday someone kills themselves, we might not hear about it or really care why they killed themselves. We only see the part as to where they did kill themselves, we don’t ponder over why they did it or was it an accident or on purpose. We never ask the questions of were they bullied, abused, misunderstood, or the big thing is depressed.

            We never seem to want to know what is really going on or happening around us. We think that everything is drama and do not want to get involved. Well maybe that is just what we need to do is get involved, go up to someone you looks like they need help and ask that awkward, unsure what is going to happen next question: Is something wrong and can I help? This question just on the outside of it looks like a scary place to go a unsure thing to do, but maybe if you were to just spend some time looking within it you would see that this question can open up a whole new world for someone who really needs the question to be asked.

            Asking that question to someone that you have maybe never talked to and just seen in the halls and thought nothing of them will help not only them, but you too. Asking a simple question which others might think is stupid could possibly save someone’s life. You could maybe save someone’s life you never know. Yes asking a question to someone that you do not know, or to someone that might not be in your clique may seem as a wrong thing to do or you might think that your friends will stop talking to you and ignore you all because you talked to the “weird person”. Though friends are supposed to be friends no matter who you are or talk to, and if they themselves cannot accept you for talking to someone that just might need it then they are not true friends at all.

            Say one day you are walking in the halls at school or you are out somewhere and you see someone who is dressed is black and is alone with headphones in their ears. And inside you know that something is wrong and that helping would not be the logical thing to do when with your friends, but maybe if you were to walk up to that person and ask a question they might open up to you and talk. And then after a while things might change with them, they might start to dress different, act different, be this completely different person that you had met that day. You could be the reason that they changed their life for the best, changed because you were willing to go out of your way, ignore what others say and help out someone who needed it the most. Then one day you come to find out that that night they were going to go home and overdose one pills to end the pain they felt. House would that make you feel within if you found out that you went outside of you comfort zone and help them.

            Wouldn’t that make you feel important, that you helped to save their life, that if it wasn’t for you they wouldn’t have a chance to live a life of wonderful things, laughing, playing, relationships, and the future they are destined to have. Wouldn’t you knowing that you saved them and opened up so many doors for them and also you in return got a true friend who would be their for you when you would need it them most.

            Though let’s take it from a different point, what if you wouldn’t have gone up to them and asked them what was wrong and if you could do anything to help? The next day you would go to school as if nothing ever happened and if was a usual day, but then on the loud speaker your principal comes on and says that last night one of your class mates had over dosed and killed them self. Some people might not think anything about it and just go on with their life as it is, but what if you are not like that and you think to yourself what could of happened if I would have helped, what if I would have asked the question and not cared what my friends would think about me? Would they still be alive today, would they be sitting in their class learning and listening to the principal say something else on the loud speaker?

            We don’t realize what is really there until it is gone. Maybe if were weren’t to just look on the outside of things and actually try to look at what is within we can do so much more, if we just look at the outside of things then we wouldn’t understand things, wouldn’t be as we are today. We wouldn’t help nor look at things from a different point of view. Everything would seem to be bias in every aspect. And some opinions would be over used or to outspoken, and this would cause chaos in a major way.

            Taking small steps in everything will allow you to look within what you are doing, you won’t just see the cover of something won’t be able to judge it just by its cover. You will be able to see things for what they truly are. Sometimes this isn’t always going to be a good thing, not everything is good but if we did not have them bad things then we wouldn’t get the experiences, wouldn’t be able to look within.

One week into it all!

So its been 2012 for a week now. How does it feel to know that you made it this far? That there are many more great things to come this year. Yes I know that everyone is thinking that the world is going to end  on 12/21/12. But personally if it does then it does, just the thing is that if we do all die would you be happy with the life you have lived so far? Would you regret anything that you have done in the past? Yes we all have small things that we regret, but when I say regret I mean things that are very huge and that you will never forget. Such as did you start on you goal for your future, did you make some kind of effort to help this world in any way, have you gotten rid of the grudges that you had against someone and will you be happy with what you have done?
These are some of the questions that you should maybe ask yourself because it is never to late to change bad things to good things. And if you have fear within you then that means you fear something, but doesn't mean that you will never overcome that fear. Take it by the  thresh hold and tell that fear that you no longer fear it, that this is you life and you decide what you want, not it deciding what you want for you.
Well as usual if there is anything that you need to talk about I will try to help out as much as I can, yes this is life and you may think that you are going through it alone, but you are not going through it alone there will always be someone their to help you when you need it the most. You may not  notice it at first but they surely are their, just have to read between them lines and take a chance at something.

So the new year is upon us all and the new year means a time for new beginnings. Time to accept new people into your life and all of that kind of stuff.
Yes I know it has been a long time since i have posted anything but to a point i kind of forgot to post anything. Been catching up on sleep and also working.
So this year my dad supposibly bought stuff for new years eve so him my mom and him can all celebrate together which is kind of weird. I dont want to spend time with him that much. We don't get along that well so yea.
But if you need help with anything please let me know.

only a few more days

So we only have three more days until Christmas. To a point this is a exciting time and then to a point it is not. All of the crowds in the malls and stores to me just doesn't seem to be worth it. Yes i like Christmas, but sometimes it just is not worth it. Plus now days it seems as though Christmas is only about who can buy the biggest and best things which is not what Christmas is about. It is about spending time with family and enjoying what you have.
Yes my religion is different from others but I still enjoy Christmas with my family. And i hope that anyone who is still going through a rough time no matter what it is still will enjoy their Christmas no matter what it might be.
An still if you have any problems just let me know and I will just help as much as i possibly can in anyway. I am here to help people and that is what i enjoy doing. I like to help others before i help myself. So Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays.

So it's getting closer to Christmas. This will be my second to last Christmas i will probably have at home for a while with family. Hopefully you all will have a great Christmas and will get to spend it with someone special of someone that you want to spend it with. And maybe they will do something small that will just blow your mind away and make you day.
And hopefully Christmas will be a great day and there will be no hurt or anything bad. This is a time for good things to happen to people not bad things and sometimes we just need that little extra boost on them days for it to make things all better just for a little time. Yes it might be for only a short time but if is better than none at all.

Went to school today and I think that the younger people in today's society do not appreciate the things that they have. The don't realize that High School is just the beginning stage of life and it is just leading you to something bigger. Something that will benefit you in life. But they don't seem to take that into play. I also see people being mean to others and it just..I don't like it and I know that I should do something about it but, I don't want to do nor say the wrong thing to them because it is not my play to do so. Maybe one day I will get the courage to say something to them..to the people who are getting bullied or are being treated wrongly. It is wrong and should not be done but the sad fact is that it does happen.

Well if anything is wrong just let me know and I'll try to help as much as I can help =)